I have four kids.
Since schools closed on March 13th I’ve been in full-time full on mommy mode.
That’s almost five months.
No breaks, except my weekly shopping trip, if that could be called a break, which has now been hijacked by my 16 year old needing driving practice.
I go to bed at 9pm. My family thinks I’m crazy, but it is literally the only time alone I have all day.
I’ve been pushing through, holding onto the dim hope that my kids would be able to go to school this fall. Yes, I know that might make me neurotic and ridiculous, an ostrich with my head in the sand, but I am an introvert. I need my time.
Not just quiet, but alone time.
Otherwise the thoughts just bounce around in my head.
My daily journaling practice is helping somewhat. At least I am articulating the swirling thoughts. But, it’s not enough.